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Saturday, 24 January 2015

My Night at the School Brothel


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Published in: beauty, break-up, dream, music, Screen, sex, The Kaput Players, Vela

Monday, 19 January 2015

An Idiot Asleep

I dreamed last night that Vela was interviewed in a national broadsheet newspaper on the eve of the publication of her first book.


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Published in: book, cats, cinema, J, nightmare, photo, Screen, The Kaput Players, TV, Vela, Visuals, Woody Allen, Words, writer

Friday, 16 January 2015

My Crooked Stick


Eighteen months ago I found a lump in my penis, hard and tender and the size of a pea. I went to see my GP, who panicked, muttered 'suspected cancer', and dispatched me to the hospital.
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Published in: crooked stick, Peyronie's, sex, surgery, The Kaput Players, Vela, Viagra

Wednesday, 14 January 2015

Listen to Your Serial


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Published in: mindfulness, murder, music, new year, Screen, self-help, Serial, The Kaput Players, Vela, Visuals

Tuesday, 13 January 2015

War and Peace

I think I’ve established by now that I need to stop thinking about Vela. 
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Published in: anger, dating, literature, painting, relationships, The Kaput Players, too much thinking, Vela, Visuals, Words

Monday, 12 January 2015

Fear of Heights



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Published in: Bad Timing, Edward Scissorhands, film, Screen, suicide, The Kaput Players, theatre, Vela, Vertigo, Visuals

Sunday, 11 January 2015

Nightmare

Image of a walking stick with curled handle

another bent stick
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Saturday, 10 January 2015

It Goes On and On and On and On....

The penis got broken towards the end of the relationship with Vela. My heart too, in a way. 

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Friday, 9 January 2015

How to Mend a Broken Heart … With a Mangled Penis

Drawing, Man's Head in Profile, Cogs in his Brain and Music Notes Flying Around Him
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Published in: crooked stick, love, relationships, suicide, The Kaput Players, Vela
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